Tea Party with Angel Readings

I held an Angel Card Reading event, in a Tea Shop yesterday, and what a wonderful experience it was, raising the energy and vibration of all!  What a better way to receive guidance from the Angels,  to sit and have some healing tea and sweets, bond with like minded souls, and talk with the Angels!  Beautiful, loving, energy around!  What a wonderful experience it was for me, and I had so much fun.  I felt as if I was hanging out with all my best friends, all of us growing and sharing our light! 

The owner wasn't sure who would attend, as we did not have anyone register, so we had no idea how the night would go.  Then, one by one, women appeared, and I went into my own private room do to the readings.  We all have Spirits around us, Angels, our own Guardian Angels, etc., and they want to help guide us along our way, but we need to ask for their help.  Through the readings, the clients resonate with the messages given, leaving them with a sense of support, comfort and courage to move ahead, knowing they have Angels all around them wanting to help.    
I started the readings, going into a separate room, leaving the women with a young woman speaking about teas and herbs, it was a perfect match.  
The readings were so beautiful, each one in tune with what the client was asking.  In my second reading while shuffling the deck, Archangel Michael came popping out, (always a sign of importance when a card pops out!) and fell onto the floor, obviously wanting to come through.  The client was shocked and amazed that it was Archangel Michael, because she feels very connected to him, and told me she put an intention out before she came, and asked Archangel Michael to come through!  There are no coincidences, only synchronicities! It doesn't get any clearer than that!  

It still amazes me each time, how the messages that need to come through do!  Some women keep quiet more than others about their issues, problems, etc., and that's fine, but the more open the individual is with their pain, the more the Angels can help guide them through their issues and help.  The more we talk and the client opens up, more messages come through, so it is important to be open, as it is not about anyone reading their future, as you should never give that power away to anyone.  

As I walked out of my room after the first reading, I saw about ten women gathering, sharing themselves, bonding, connecting and having tea together.  They were sharing knowledge about herbs, teas, Angels, Spirits, and the messages that came through for them.  They were loving and supporting one another and didn't even realize the importance of it, and as I walked into that room, my heart was filled with so much love, gratitude and appreciation.   Women that did not even know each other prior to this, all getting together because they are all searching, searching for answers in their life, searching for self love, self acceptance, and understanding.  And here, in that space they found it.  They found it from the love and acceptance from the Angels above, and from the Angels that walk among us.  I am sure each one left with a lighter, happier heart guiding their way, and I am grateful for being part of this experience.  
My last reading was beautiful and perfect.  After the reading the woman looked at me and said, "Are you always this happy and positive?"  Wow, if you knew me years ago, you would realize what a compliment that is, but even more so, I told her what a soul sister once shared with me, "The light you see in me, is only a reflection of the light you see within yourself".  Powerful, beautiful, it was powerful then, and still is now, and so beautiful to hear especially if we are suffering in any way.  
I did not arrive home until 10:30, and I was so wired I could not relax, and had to speak to someone, so I phoned my son.  We talked awhile, and I was so excited and happy about the event, sharing this all with him.  The energy I felt from the Angels and the women, was the energy I use to feel years ago, back in College or High School days, when those friends fill you up with love and joy and you don't even realize it.  I was happier, lighter, and felt my heart open even more, leaving me content and in peace. I was grateful, very grateful, and thanked the Angels for their loving guidance that night.  
This is the beauty of giving and serving for the good of all.  We all have the opportunity to learn, grow, evolve, and it is much easier when we have the love and support of others.  Many are alone, many feel alone, and it is so important to bond, connect and come together now.  It does help having the faith to know we all have help from the Angels above, guiding us each and every moment, and all we have to do is ask for their help.  

And by our gathering, which started out as a Tea Party with Angel Card Readings, we helped to raise the energy and consciousness of all, as we are all one, all connected, and when one is uplifted, we all are!

A New Season Again

So much happening, as I am trying to create a new life here, in a new place again.  It's amazing how each season brings thoughts from the past, the past to where I was last year during this time.  The time is the fall, a new season here down the shore.  It is awesome and amazing to be down here, as it seems, anytime of the year, it is better than being anywhere else in Jersey.  Except up North with my children, if they wanted to live with me, but they don't, they are on their own, not wanting to come back home with Mom.  
To see the Ocean each day, never gets old, it is still a miracle and blessing each day.  It feels as if the ocean has something to say, so much to say to each of us, with it's soothing sound, or rough chaos!
I love bare feet, and don't appreciate the cold, so this time of year is always an adjustment.  But, I am getting there.  I am trying to focus on gratitude each and every day, and we all have so much to be grateful for!  And last year this time I did not have my own place down the shore as I do now! Amen!  And I want my home on the Ocean with loved ones in it so I can be in peace each and every day! 
Connecting with loved ones is really important for me I see now, as living alone gets pretty lonely.  To not have a daily contact from a human in the morning for a "Good Morning!", or at night for a "Good Night!", and a hug here and there!  I took that for granted, and love people around, I always did!  Love those hugs, they are so awesome, so comforting for sure! 
The home with loved ones in and out all day, each and every day, celebrating anytime something special comes up!  Just loving to be together, get together and hang out, enjoying one another's company and energy!  It is all about energy, and it we can feel it.  When I am around loved ones, and I come home, and am alone, I still feel that love around me and it comforts me so!!  These are feelings I have always realized, but not to this extent!  It really is so cool, that is why it is so important to be careful who you allow in your space!! 
 Now when I get sad about the past I cry a few tears, then let it go, and mindfully focus on something good, something happy, something to be grateful for, and then what I want my life to be!
Do we ask ourselves each day what we want?  What truly makes us happy along our path of growth?  Even if you are happy, now what?  Where do we go from here?  What is our life purpose?  How could we serve?  Anything we put out comes back, what type of world do we want to create?  How do we want to feel about our choices each day?  Love or fear, that is what it comes down to, and guess what?  We can not be in a place of love and fear at the same time, they are truly opposite vibrations, so stay in love and let the rest go!! It is up to us to control our own mind, and become more aware and conscious of our choices!  We have the power to change the world, and we truly are, just open your eyes to love, and focus on that!  The suffering is gone, the victim hood over.  It is a different time, a different reality, one with love, forgiveness and an open heart!  
We did it, we tipped the scale of darkness to light, pain to love!  Welcome to our new earth, let's see what it has in store for each and every one of us!
Namaste, Blessings of Love and Light! 

Fall is on it's Way

Okay, so I was in a new place this summer, and I suppose it did help.  I truly did not appreciate it as much as I should have though, as I had so many bouts of tears!  Waking up alone still gets me, every single morning!  It takes awhile to get positive again, some days are easier than others.  Today is a good day, as I have a lot of good stuff going on in my life now.  I am doing Goddess Readings and Reiki on Friday's in a place in Bradley Beach.  I love doing readings, it's like therapy to them, and spirit is really helping to guide them through you!  I need to get this out more, find more places to do this, have parties, etc.  
I also found a part time nanny job two days a week to help pay the bills, which was pretty important.  I need steady income, until I can create financial abundance through my other work.  
I started another business, "Rays of Healing Reiki" for Dogs!  So, busy I am!  I created business cards, flyers, etc., for my new business, and have to get out and about and advertise.  I will go to the groomers, doggie day cares, etc., and ask if I can put my flyer and business cards out.  I have a really good feeling about this, it's just where I should be now, helping to heal the dogs.  The Reiki is also really helping to calm and heal so many dogs, so it will be exciting to experience this!  It all came about after a Qi Gong class I took, my energy shifted, and spirit guided me to such.  The cool thing is my daughter is also a dog trainer, her and her boyfriend, and they have their own business, specializing in board and training agressive dogs!  So, once they get a facility, I hope to work there with them a few days a week.  This also will keep me in my daughter's life, which I so want to be!  
                                   
And of course, there is always my writing, my writing which I wish I could do full time!  Stay home and get paid for it, for doing what I truly love!  So, I am becoming more aware of doing this for an income, and have found sources online that will pay you to write for them, I just need to follow through.  And my children's books will always be there, sitting on my coffee table, waiting for me to illustrate, draw, and paint!  I pick them up, do work here and there, but also need to make it a priority! So, I am asking the Universe to send me help here, help with getting my books finished, illustrated and published!! 
So many dreams, passions, but I still want love, true love.  I would love to fall in love again, and get married, and have family around always.  Living alone is lonely, living with others is so energizing, and comforting.  I have spent enough time alone, time to pander, pray, meditate, and figure it all out!  Which none of us will ever do anyway, but I sure have tried.  I have done so much inner work, I am done!  Done of the tears, the wrongs I did, the blame, the torture.  It is time to forgive, forgive ourselves for any and all of it, no matter what it was, it's done, gone, gone forever.  The memory always lasts though, so it is good to heal that memory, then let it go.  I held on too long, I remember the summer after seeing Teal Swan, how I cried all summer, wasted my precious time away!  I wrote all about it here too, too much pain and sadness.  Too much idle time on our hands is not so good, we can get caught up in the pain and suffering.  Getting out, being alive, seeing the trees, nature, the ocean, good friends, that is what it's about!  Life, it's what we make it, what we want it to be.  I know that now, and that is why I focus on my dreams, my mansion up North with my daughter in it with me, with my son in his own mansion next to me, on the lake.  I just went to visit my daughter again, and she is staying with my sister in law, who owns a gorgeous home, a gorgeous mansion as I like to call it!  As I left, I decided this is what I want, a beautiful home like this, where my kids can come and go, friends and family too!  My ex husband and I were building a beautiful home, a castle in the woods, and I still dream of that place.  So, I want my dream of owning my beautiful mansion, with children in it, to come true!  Why not?  I have struggled so many years, had money, gave it away to men I should not have, and now want more.  I also want a home on the ocean for my husband and I, for all of our family and friends to come stay and visit anytime, where I can write, draw and paint my heart away!  
And so it is!  

Labor Day Weekend

Oh boy, the last days of summer, Labor Day weekend.  I always get so sad during these summer holidays when I have nowhere to go and don't get invited anywhere!  It totally makes me feel so alone!  Just great, just the same each day, sad lonely feelings I have to deal with each morning I awake.  

It doesn't seem to get any easier, just the same sadness each morning waking up alone.  Then it takes me awhile to adjust, deal with it, and get through the day.  Some days it is hard to get motivated, to do all I want to do.  I have written a few children's books, and am working on illustrating one now, but it seems hard to sit down and create, when I am feeling so low.  That is my dream, to finally get them illustrated and published, so I can share them with the children, and be free.  Free from this life, free from the financial burden I always feel, free from feeling so alone all the time.  I love the children, I always did, they always lighten up my life! 

I am trying to create a new life here, at the beach, and it's not fun at all.  I still yearn for the life and family I had, the life with my three kids, and my ex husband!  Although things got rough, and we parted ways, I still hold his love so deep in my heart, it's hard to shake off.  I had loved him so much, for over twenty five years.  He became so bitter, angry and insulting though, that has left pain in my heart as well.  I am working on "letting go", I work on it all the time it seems, and I still get thoughts that haunt me from the past!  Memories of the many things I did so wrong, and should have done so much better. 

 After my divorce, I was a single Mom for a long time, and I wish I did so many things differently.  These thoughts always seem to come and haunt me, and I cry so much of the time.  The messages I receive about the ascension, all tell me I am releasing the pain, to just let it go.  To try not to get so deep into the feelings, but cry and release.  I blame myself too much for so many mistakes I made, and forgiving myself is something I work on often.  It is really hard for me to forgive myself, I have three children that were affected by my life choices. 

I miss my children, my family, and I feel the need to connect with them all the time.  My family doesn't seem so close anymore, no one wanting to get together for a BBQ in the summer anymore.  Unless they are and I am not invited, which did happen this Memorial Day weekend for me.  Many times I feel so alone, my family gone, my children gone, and then I ask why?  Why is this going on and happening to me?  Why couldn't we have worked it out, got through it all and kept "our" family together?  We were building a beautiful home, a true castle with octagons on both sides, in five acres of woods!  Do I even remember us focusing on this?  No, not one bit!  All I remember is the fighting, the hurt, the pain, the insults.  Why couldn't we focus on the good, the love, the joy we had in our life creating our family, with our three children?  It doesn't help when I ask why, because I never get an answer, it only makes it worse!

So, for today, I will try to let it go, breathe deep, pray, meditate, do some energy work and yoga, and try to purge on with the day, with some type of joy in my heart.

I just wish it would all get easier, and my tears from the past will stop, and I will be able to move forward!

The Hard Days

Well, another day, and what a low day I had today! 
Some days it feels so hard, so hard to get ahead, provide financially for myself, and to stay happy, focused and centered.  I couldn't shake it off all day, frazzled with worry about how funds will appear for me now!  Today!  It put me in such a bad mood, and it's so hard to shift that energy for me, and I don't even want to leave the house.  
But, I finally did, as we were having dinner with my daughter for her birthday, so I was driving up North awhile ago, when she called and cancelled.  She has so much going on now, and was not feeling well, so we changed it to another night.  So, instead of hanging out with my son alone, I decided to turn around, not hit the traffic going up North, and come back home.  Little did I think I would hit traffic anywhere I went, and when I turned around, I did not take the Parkway, and it took me over an hour to get back home!  The same amount of time it would have taken me to go up North to see him!  Why didn't I just go up to see him, my son?  If I thought about it, seeing him would have totally cheered me up, and given me great energy again!  It's almost like when your low, something guides you the wrong way, the way to lower energy and vibrations.  My vibration is already so low, that by seeing him, he would have helped raise that energy within me!  One, because he is my son, and we have that amazing connection that energizes you by just being together, and two, because I love him, love to see him, miss him, and he just moved into his own place, and I have gifts of plants for him I could have given him! And, I don't look forward to coming home alone again! 
 I realize this, I cry, scream inside my car alone, and can't deal with the choices I make, feeling so foolish for turning around and not jumping on the chance to see my son.  Then, do you think your intuition is guiding you a certain way?  Because I had a strong urge to turn around and go home when my daugher cancelled.  I will tell you why, I feel so unsettled about this money thing, it's getting me sick, and very anxious, and I didn't want to be sad and upset with my son.  When I feel this way, it is hard for me to hide from my children, especially my son!  But, now I see it would have comforted me so much to see him, to be alone with him, and hang out in his new place!
I pray I make better decisions in the future!
I have good news though, about doing energy work in a space in Bradley, energy work, Reiki, and Oracle Cards, Goddess and Life Purpose.  I am meeting the owners tomorrow morning to discuss.  I hope it goes well, and they allow me to use their space a few days a week, so I can help others, and become financially abundant along the way!  I am grateful for this, as I put it out there all last week to find a space to allow me to help in the healing of others, and this appeared after speaking to a friend I know who does Sound Healing with the Crystal bowls and gongs!
And so it is!
Love and Light Always!

Learning to Live Alone

Another Sunday, here at the beach! Super hot out, even too hot and humid to hit the beach, so I will go later on after 5:00 to walk on the ocean and say Hello for today.  I finally have made a point to visit the ocean at least once a day, walk on the ocean, to help heal and calm me down.  I seem so nervous, starting to get worried again about finances, and I know I have to stay in the mind frame of abundance, so grounding, and going to the ocean is so healing and calming.  I can feel a difference within myself of the calming affect, as the ocean takes all my worries away, shifting my energy to a higher state.

It seems each day I wake up not so happy, because I am alone, and miss my children, and the family I once had!  When I awake, my mind spirals into the sadness I feel being alone, and I have to mentally shift my focus on something good, something that puts a smile on my face, shifting to gratitude and appreciation, and love.  Every day I have to remind myself thoughout the day when sad thoughts of the past appear, to push them away, and focus on the light.  I always wonder why these sad memories appear, so many times throughout one day!  I try to focus on what I have, the Love I have around me, and go from there, shifting to gratitude.  I also envison myself illustrating my children's book, "Faith in Angels", and see myself traveling around, reading it to all the children who will listen! 

I wish I knew it all, I wish I had all the answers of being and staying happy, content, and calm, and financially abundant, but I still have not!  I ask why is this such a hard task to understand?  Don't we have the right to know what the heck this is all about?  All the struggles, pain and suffering we see in the world, makes no sense to any of us, and hurts us deeply, and all for what?  Who even knows?  To live a life I have lived, has not been an easy one, with much sadness, asking myself, what was the point of it all?  Was it worth what?  As I am still trying to find my purpose here, help others, and create abundance in every way, as I want to never have to stress about finances, I want my home on the beach, along with my white Porsche Cayenne!  Yes, I have always believed to "Dream great dreams, make them come true!"

  

Although I have such faith, and hope, in God, Love, the Universe, it still seems like a struggle too much of the time.  Waking up alone everyday is not fun for me, I have had such a full life with people in it, living together, being a single mom of three, so living alone is a huge change.  Waking up alone, getting all your energy from yourself, with no one to talk to or say Hello to, it's not my cup of tea!  I love my children around me, I love being a full time Mom, I loved being married, kissing a man good night, and good morning!

So, with all this energy going around, the Lion's Gate in August, it's manifestation time, I am have been focusing on manifesting my true love.  My soul mate who is waiting for me as I am him, someone so kind, giving, and loving, respectful, trustful, and funny!! Can't wait to bump into him, live together, and be together as one, along with his family and mine.  It is so beautiful when I see people in love, especially the ones I know who have been divorced, and found true love again!  It gives me faith to know this will happen to me too, I want it now!  (I have been told when you manifest, make sure you say NOW!) I want it now, true love now, financial abundance now, so I never have to be alone again, nor stress in any way about finances! 

And so it is, thank you, Amen! 

Settling In Finally!

So, I am finally settling in after three months, and getting together a routine.  I am feeling much better in the mornings, less upper back pain, due to the Naturopath I started to see a month ago for Lyme.  That's another article for another day!

I start my day now with some energy work, by Donna Eden, and Peng, do some yoga, and even some weights!! The trick is to make sure it gets done every morning!! Like when I use to run to the gym every morning, to get rid of that crazy energy I had! (But didn't know it!)  Now, I haven't been feeling strong enough to do anything physical, but I still was making sure I walked on the beach each time I went.  Now that I am feeling better, I can start my day with some energy work, to help heal my body, and get me through the day with ENERGY!  

I still wake up sad some days, sad I am alone and miss my kids, then my brain goes back to the past, how sad it was, and how I wish I did so much differently with my children.  So, I am working on letting go of that, and more important, forgiving myself for what I have done!  That's the hard part, forgiveness of myself!  But, one I will master, I am mastering, and so it is! Amen

I have some new friends here, a married couple with a beautiful two year old daughter, who I am so grateful to have come into my life now.  She had Lyme very badly, and has been such an amazing mentor and support for me during this time!! And her daughter is beautiful inside and out, and I love spending time with her!  

And I have my niece here and her new husband, and love that they are near and can see them often.  They have been really busy this summer, so I haven't seen them much, but it's still great to know they are here.

Finally spoke with my daughter today! Thank you Universe for this! I had been praying about it, and constantly sending her love and light, love and light, that's all there is!
Having a better day today!