It seems like I am always asking why?
Why am I here? What is this life all about? Why so much suffering? For me, and the many others here on earth. And, I am tired! Tired of struggling, tired of suffering, tired of being alone and living this life I evidently created! (scary thought, I know!)
Even though I pay attention to the Ascension happening on earth, I still get in a funk all the time, a funk about my life.
Being so unhappy where I am in my life. Here, away from my children, who all have their lives now, and don't need me in it. Being over an hour away from them. Waiting for an invite and never getting one. Making plans with them to make sure I get to see them.
But all for what? Why? Why to live alone and be alone for years?
Each day is still a challenge, even though I have my own place now, and I am at the beach and have the opportunity to see the Ocean every day! Because it's about life, living, and who I live with, and who lives with me. It's about family, and having those loved ones around you all the time. It's about sharing your life with someone, or lots of someones, and having so many loved ones around, all the time. Living together, loving together, laughing together. My daughter is now living with her Aunt, and when I go to visit, I see her laughing and joking with everyone in the house, and it breaks my heart she is not like that with me. It breaks my heart she cries to her when sad, and not me, her Mom. It makes me sad she doesn't live with me now, and things did not work out that way for now.
