Another Sunday, here at the beach! Super hot out, even too hot and humid to hit the beach, so I will go later on after 5:00 to walk on the ocean and say Hello for today. I finally have made a point to visit the ocean at least once a day, walk on the ocean, to help heal and calm me down. I seem so nervous, starting to get worried again about finances, and I know I have to stay in the mind frame of abundance, so grounding, and going to the ocean is so healing and calming. I can feel a difference within myself of the calming affect, as the ocean takes all my worries away, shifting my energy to a higher state.
It seems each day I wake up not so happy, because I am alone, and miss my children, and the family I once had! When I awake, my mind spirals into the sadness I feel being alone, and I have to mentally shift my focus on something good, something that puts a smile on my face, shifting to gratitude and appreciation, and love. Every day I have to remind myself thoughout the day when sad thoughts of the past appear, to push them away, and focus on the light. I always wonder why these sad memories appear, so many times throughout one day! I try to focus on what I have, the Love I have around me, and go from there, shifting to gratitude. I also envison myself illustrating my children's book, "Faith in Angels", and see myself traveling around, reading it to all the children who will listen!
I wish I knew it all, I wish I had all the answers of being and staying happy, content, and calm, and financially abundant, but I still have not! I ask why is this such a hard task to understand? Don't we have the right to know what the heck this is all about? All the struggles, pain and suffering we see in the world, makes no sense to any of us, and hurts us deeply, and all for what? Who even knows? To live a life I have lived, has not been an easy one, with much sadness, asking myself, what was the point of it all? Was it worth what? As I am still trying to find my purpose here, help others, and create abundance in every way, as I want to never have to stress about finances, I want my home on the beach, along with my white Porsche Cayenne! Yes, I have always believed to "Dream great dreams, make them come true!"
Although I have such faith, and hope, in God, Love, the Universe, it still seems like a struggle too much of the time. Waking up alone everyday is not fun for me, I have had such a full life with people in it, living together, being a single mom of three, so living alone is a huge change. Waking up alone, getting all your energy from yourself, with no one to talk to or say Hello to, it's not my cup of tea! I love my children around me, I love being a full time Mom, I loved being married, kissing a man good night, and good morning!
So, with all this energy going around, the Lion's Gate in August, it's manifestation time, I am have been focusing on manifesting my true love. My soul mate who is waiting for me as I am him, someone so kind, giving, and loving, respectful, trustful, and funny!! Can't wait to bump into him, live together, and be together as one, along with his family and mine. It is so beautiful when I see people in love, especially the ones I know who have been divorced, and found true love again! It gives me faith to know this will happen to me too, I want it now! (I have been told when you manifest, make sure you say NOW!) I want it now, true love now, financial abundance now, so I never have to be alone again, nor stress in any way about finances!
And so it is, thank you, Amen!
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